Small Wins, Big Feelings

Since my last blog entry, there’s been more bonding among the foreign teachers. We’ve had a few dinners and even spent some time grabbing drinks at the bar.

At school, I’ve become more comfortable with the routine and more confident in the classroom. I finally understand the schedule, and I have a better grasp of the expectations for my classes.

I’m still struggling with Korean work culture. Working with Koreans can be exhausting—they are extremely disciplined and have very high expectations for everyone. Questions aren’t always welcomed, especially if the information has already been shared once. They also tend to be resistant to suggestions; once a decision has been made, there’s little room for deviation.

Even though I’m the lead teacher in my classroom, I’ve found that, for my own sanity, I need to run everything by my co-teacher before doing anything. Frustratingly, she often gives me real-time feedback about what I “need” to be doing and exactly how I should be doing it. This adds another layer of exhaustion—it makes me feel incompetent, like I can’t do anything right. Sometimes, I end up letting her take over while I step in to support the students where I can.

Fortunately, I truly enjoy working with my four students. Communication is slowly developing—mostly through actions, but also as they begin to adjust to English. It’s incredible to share this journey with them. The moments when they hug me, laugh with me, sing with me, and get excited are incredibly rewarding. Their innocence, trust, and determination are amazing. They fill my heart with joy.

Outside of school, I’m feeling more comfortable navigating the city. I’ve found a great app that provides very specific directions for public transportation, including buses and the subway. Luckily, there’s only one subway line, which keeps things simple.

Right now, Korea doesn’t quite feel like the right fit for me. However, I’m willing to give it time and a fair chance.